jesus i am so tired, i spent the day sleeping and then just boinggggging to attention, like a flip phone. my hair is being retarded and i truly do not want to do my homework. well thats okay i'll do it anyways and just feel accomplished about it like a total winner. talking to my ex boyfriend brings back such great memories, of sitting in dark vans, having nothing in the world to want more than a warm embrace. having drama over a girl with big boobs and little legs. just wanting to be wanted. now its so much more complicated, now i realize its all just fun, before i have to actually commit to some poor guy. im not happy about it, but thats life. i wish for someone to just want me, and me to want them back. like the old days. just being loved in a friendship way was enough for me. its stupid that i thought i was falling inlove, i truly was a fool. i now realize its not love its just infatuation. and i'll keep that in mind when i keep on moving along those train tracks. i wish there was a perfect song to describe how i feel right now. but sadly there is only sad indie rock songs which don't even half fill my musical void i've created by listening to shitty music over the years. and i want bed sheets make of rabbit fur. just saying. goodnight beautiful.
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